A Fall Update
Late October and early November is a time full of tradition. We have Halloween at the end of October, of course, but that doesn’t really affect me too much. October 31st was just another day of work and school, except for the fact that my English Professor brought us candy. I didn’t get excited about the candy as much as I did when teachers brought us candy in Middle or even High School. What does that say about me?
Around the same time is the anniversary of the Protestant Reformation, which celebrates so many things, but in the words I told my Sunday School class last Sunday, it’s a time to be thankful for the Bible. It wasn’t always accessible to everyday people, and people had to rely on interpretations from priests. It’s easy to see how they could and did take advantage of the power that gave them. Martin Luther came around, however, and translated the Bible into German, which made it accessible to everyone. He also made God accessible to everyone, at least through interpretation. He’s the one who pushed that one could be saved through grace rather than good deeds, and that every single person could have a relationship with God without a middle man (a priest). Okay, enough of the History lesson.
All Saints Day is celebrated this Sunday, and it’s always a sad day because we remember those who have passed on.
Nanowrimo (National Novel Writing Month) is also this month. It kind of makes me sad because I really really want to participate this year, but have decided not to because I worry it will become a distraction from my classes which end this month. I don’t even read books for fun anymore, because I feel guilty for not reading my textbooks instead. I do still play video games from time to time, though much less frequently than I used to. While I’m a little sad I won’t be participating in something I try to participate in each year, I know I’m making the best decision, and sacrifices like this are worth it.
It’s crazy to think that this semester is almost over. I feel like school just started. Semesters in college fly by. I have an A in all four of my courses, and I’m confident I will keep those A’s. I have a 102 in Prob and Stats, a 100 in Spanish, a 99.5 in English, and my lowest grade is a 96 in Psychology. People call me an over-achiever, but I think I’m just hungry and thankful for the opportunity that has been given to me. I’ve wanted to return to school for so long, and this means a lot to me, and I think my grades reflect that. It’s weird because when my instructors post test grades, they talk about how the class did overall, and the mean is consistently a failing grade. Students admit to me that they didn’t study, and I just don’t get it. We’re paying for these classes. This is our future.
Two of my instructors let me know that they recommended me for the Honors program at my college. I’m honestly not sure how I feel about Honors. I’m of course flattered and grateful that they thought so highly of me to recommend me, but I’m wondering if it will be worth its benefits. I’ll take harder classes and possibly not score as high as I am in the classes I am taking now. Does a B in an Honors class look better than an A in a normal course in college? Next week, I’m meeting with the head of my department (Education) at the college I’m transferring to and am going to ask his advice on it.
My initial thought (or worry) is I will not enjoy Honors classes as much as I do regular courses. It’s not just about the course content or the difficulty of work as it is the setting and the people around me. I’m not saying all Honors students are like this, but most, at least at my current college, are students fresh out of high school who are still living at home with their parents. They have strong support systems behind them, and their performance shows that. They are also kind of cocky, but without substance; they haven’t really lived life yet, but they act like they know more than most do. I identify more with my classmates in the regular courses. They haven’t had everything handed to them, and are working hard (often working while going to school like I am). They share their life experiences in class. Being in class with them is rewarding to me, and I enjoy interacting with them much more than I feel like I would being in a class full of gifted students. I have fellow Honors students in a couple of my classes, and they just seem naive and presumptuous. I know I’m judging, and I hate that, but I want to write out what’s really going through my head. I’m human. I probably just need to investigate this further before making a decision.
Good luck to everyone participating in Nano! I’ll be rooting for you over here with my nose in my Psychology textbook. (At least it’s interesting!)